Self-Reassessment is Needed….

Hello my friends,

Sorry I’ve been MIA for a bit. 

Life and the never ceasing battle for survival in this world had kidnapped me for a while.  How is everyone? 

It’s funny because comparatively, it wasn’t such a long break in my writing… but for some reason, I feel that it’s been an eternity.  Isn’t that kind of strange how some periods of time seem to last a lot longer than others?  I have been living in my head for a while, just thinking and evaluating thoughts, people, life and my own behavior in general.  I have also been playing the role of a supportive friend to a close friend of mine. 

Now, I have always been quite the “people person”.  I am super-extroverted and I pretty much get along with everyone…. I am one of those people who speaks my mind… “what you see is what you get” kind of gal.  I try to approach life and people from the standpoint of  integrity and kindness.  I trust people until they’ve proven themselves to be unworthy of my trust.  I am empathetic by nature. I “feel” people’s pain and I cant help myself from reaching out to help.  In my lifetime, I have encountered people of all shapes and forms.  I take the good with the bad in people.  I recognize the fact that no one is perfect BUT one thing I have always believed in is that humans, inherently are good.  In spite of negative experiences, I always held on tight to that belief.   Now, I and not naive enough to believe that good things will happen to good people and bad things will happen to bad people as I have seen enough empirical proof in life otherwise but I’ve always believed that people are inherently good until recently…

A friend of mine recently had a very traumatic experience.  She met someone who set out from day 1 with the intention of deception.  My girlfriend is a very naive girl who believed in love and romance with sugar on top.  She introduced me to him and my instincts told me from the get go that something is off about him, but she liked him so I went along with her for the ride.  In the course of the time they were together, I get details everyday about their interactions. The guy seemed genuinely enamored with her, a lot more so than she was into him so after a while, I revised my assessment (I could be wrong…sometimes 😉 

In situations like this, I would LOVE to be proven wrong but unfortunately I was right.  He is a very sick man who schemed on using her and ended up hurting her in the cruelest way possible.. emotionally and mentally… to the point that she was completely devastated from the experience.  I wont go into details because I don’t want to betray her confidence.  The sad conclusion is that she is left with a life altering decision and no longer believing in true love and romance.  Witnessing her experience is disheartening.  It made me ponder and wonder if the foundation of my belief system may be wrong that everyone is inherently good.  It’s very disturbing.  I am not sure what to make of it for now so you may hear me ramble about this for a while hahaha… Lucky you 😉

However, I did liked this quote I found online:

Anyway, on a happier note, I have two more weeks before my long awaited trip to the orient to reunite with my sisters.  Oh I cant wait, I cant wait!! It’s been a year since I’ve seen them and even though we speak to each other every day, I missed them like crazy!  November 13….. I am counting down!!

Anyway, gotta run!  I have my last arrangement experience class tonight before the show!  If you are free this Sunday night and looking for a great time, come out to Don’t Tell Mama’s at 7PM and let us entertain you!  I promise you a wonderful time!  RSVP by clicking here!