Happy Friday everyone!
Are you ready for the long weekend? I know I am! My weekend is going to be packed with musical activities! Between today and Monday, I am going to seeing one show after another which is wonderful! Hopefully I can squeeze in some “me” time where I can be alone with my music, crystals, candles and stars in my apartment 🙂
One of these days someone is probably going to say to me, “Natasha, you need to stop with all your ramblings of your thoughts!” hahaha…Will that make a difference? Probably not! After all, this is my blog no? 😉
Here I am on my “lunch break” and how am I spending it? I decided to spend the time writing. I am generally an optimist by nature. I am one of those people who just don’t have the ability to stay unhappy for long. I find that after a while (a short while) I get sick of being sad if that makes any sense at all. It’s not that I am heartless or have no feelings… in fact, it’s quite the contrary… I am a passionate being who FEELS…too much! too intensely… possibly more so than people can imagine. I don’t believe in holding back. When I love, I LOVE, when I hate, I HATE, when I am happy, I am ALL laughter and when I am sad…you can see the dark clouds over me as I cry.
I think my attitude is a reflection of the relationship I’ve shared with Mortality. At many points in my life I’ve found myself standing at cross roads between life and death. At times, it is related to someone I love and other times, it’s about my own survival. I’ve come to realize that I can fight anything but death is ultimately inevitable. I can never bring back someone I love from Death.
It’s a morbid subject but there is significance to it. When I am experiencing the myriads of sensations that comes with being alive, I find myself thinking about what is it that really matters. More oftenly at times when I am sad. I realized that how I feel is just a state of my mind which has very little impact to the rest of the world and it is my choice to decide how I’d like myself to be, to feel. It’s wonderful to be happy, get what you want, to love and be loved… All of us can relate to those feelings. No one likes the feeling of loss, heart break, disappointments… Yet, in it’s own way, these negative emotions are equally beautiful! As far as I am concerned, they are all reminders to me that I am “alive”! No one knows what death is like. In the best scenario, when a person dies, everything stops… they lose all connection to the senses and feelings. In a worst case scenario, they may continue to feel but nobody knows… Those thoughts make me appreciate all that life has to offer. Whenever I am sad, I would always put myself though this thought process and I come out every time… HAPPY GIRL, once again because right now, I am here alive and experiencing LIFE!!
Until next time! Cheers!
